Sunday, August 31, 2008

a couple of great blogs

Ok, so i'm into theology, its one of my strange hobbies... and thought i'd share in case any of you are as well! keep an eye out, i'll be adding to this.

Here I am, Here am I

Doesn't that sound like a Charlie Crews-ism? any other "Life" fans? I adore that show... can't wait for the new season! anyway, i was up at 4:45 this am, and it now 6:06 and i'm BORED! my friends went to make breakfast for the homeless at the mission and left their 2 little ones with me. They are adorable. What a blessing to get to watch them once in a while. Its a good life. I love getting up before everyone else. I like QUIET! and maybe some quiet praise music in the background. Today i'm going to go to church, then go to the going out of business sale at the local homeschool store and buy MORE books. Already been there TWICE! LOL. I hope all goes well with Erica. She's a lovely person. Ok, i actually don't have a whole lot to say. Put THAT down in the record books!!

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Its all about ME!!

What a way to start a blog, right? Well, its true. This blog, is entirely about me. About my feelings, my thoughts, my concerns, good stuff i find and want to share, and my ever present philosophies of life. First an introduction, my name is Rebecca. I live in rainy paradise with my dear hubby of 14 years next month, my 5 beautiful children and no pets! I feel kind of liberated about that and had to make that distinction.

I'm starting a blog for a number of reasons but primarily because i want to be able to go back and read truths i've discovered when i'm sinking into a pit, as a way of pulling myself out. You see, i've recently come out... well, i'd not say i'm OUT but i'm in a semi-healthy state at the moment, and am at least starting to see truth as truth, and am not completely decieved as was the case a month ago. I went through a very difficult period... maybe a midlife crisis? and was in the position where i had to decide WHAT i believed and what i wanted my life to be. I think that being a fairly easygoing person, i'd sort of let my life happen without being party to it, and started to resent that and wonder where "I" was in all that... I allowed myself to go places i never would have thought possible.. i've definately been humbled. That is for sure. And i think that's a good thing.

But i basically had to ask myself a few critical questions. Is God real and do i believe what i say i believe. and the answer was a resounding YES!! So next the question was, is my life God's will for my life? Another YES! and finally, do i choose to obey God's calling for my life? Because let's face it, i'm autonomous, i can choose to live my life however i want. But i DO want to do the right thing. I've discovered i can't possibly do it on my own so i'm seeking Him and trusting that He will pull me out of the pit as he always has before i've been consumed. I trust Him. So here i am. I am first a daughter of the King, second a wife, third a mother, fourth a friend, sister, and neighbor. In all reality it ISN'T all about me, and i'm OK with that!